jie will be back from hongkong tonight!! man i cant wait to see what she has bought for herself and us. :D
hongkong is such a shoppping paradize.

loke just told me that ry has predicted that 66% of our class will get just Cs and Ds for A levels.
i am depress after hearing that. :(

and i'm not happy in school nowadays.. not even good food can brighten my day the way it previously could.

and i am sad to say,
only little actions/things said are needed to reveal the true you.

i cant understand why im getting more emotional each day.

maybe it's because.. i've learned too much truths. so much so that it's hurting me emotionally(things which may or may not involve me - maybe r.s. is right, i shant be so kpo to even bother and to let them affect me).
the thing is.. i dont know why im so bothered by it when it's a total none-of-my-business.
perhaps it's because i always have this tendency to sympathize the 'victims' and deem the other as domineering and mean and etc?

but come on lsx stop being so childish la. hahah you know everybody is entitled to their own rights to behave in whichever way they like.

i think being too direct at a person will hurt the person in a way or another esp when the things coming out are 'negatively charged'.

i think i've tried my best to do whatever i can already. and now, i am tired of trying...really really tired.
i dont fucking like the ugly side of man.

i admire people who can be not as emotional, take things lightly, able to think for themselves and not just for others.

random.random.random.


cant talk to r.s. now.. he's working! mmm but even if i do tell you about it, you will still say the same old stuffs like " dont about those people la blablabla".
but this is not what i need.
what i need is a listening ear and consoling words.
but i wont expect too much la... im aware that you're still a human too. lol

i dont dare to turn to mighty cos they have their own problems on hand too......

may tomorrow be a better day.

it's 12.55am already. time flies when i do things like msn.ing, friendstering, blog-reading...
reached home at only at 8plus. lol. cos r.s couldnt bear to leave me. wahaha.
but anyway, i would like to thank r.s's parents for the gifts they have bought for me during their trip in taiwan. thankyou auntie, uncle!
they bought a couple shirt for us, a small pouch, etc etc.
okay. the key point here is that they are sweet enough to get us couple shirts. hehe.

mmm. i will pray for the two of you.. to solve whatever is not solved.

tutors always like to say we should always know more for the good of us blablabla. sometimes i think knowing more than one should, can have an adverse effect.
especially when you dont know how or what you can do to help the involving parties...


mr r.s., i bet you have fallen asleep already. you this bloody asshole. LOL.

good night everyone.

in times like this...
i ponder, i think,
everybody dislikes me.
directly or not, only you can access your heart.


let me, just let me, push the blame to P-M-S.
let me, just let me, learn not to vent everything on r.s.
let me, just let me, believe the unbelievables.


why isit always like this?
i'm really........
i tried conveying my thoughts to you, with much hope that your words can prove more than just comfort.
but
you will never truly understand.
how much these people mean to me.
that one sentence of yours will never be sufficient.
how much i would like you to understand me.
sorry.. it's my fault for the high expectation.




in times like this...
isolation is the only solution.


in times like this...
i've learn not to be too emotional over issues that people may think nothing of.























in times like this...
i wish i havent been so imaginative. :)

Hey, I've came across this photo that is taken long time ago? LOL, hmm, wanted to post this since long time ago too. But, I'm quite absence-minded as you can see. So, yup, this entry is specially post for YOU! =)

Still remember those days whereby you can actually sit down there in the long john and mugged so hard??? Hmm, I hope you are able to do it NOW too. Yup, your studying partner might not be sel anymore but....BEAR in mind, the fighting never die spirit is STILL in you! So, what are you waiting for?

Time for you to buck up and strive to do your ultimate best in your A levels! =) Gwee will always support you in spiritually no matter where I am...

Study study study... Have the feel of studying right now? LOL I HOPE SO! =x


posted on date: 10th April 2006
time: 8.54 pm
subject: specially to s.xian! =)
from: GYX.


gyx. me and mighty's best friend.

another weekend!
fridays are my sleeping and relaxing days. :)

had lunch with cassong at ThaiExpress. 'cause this girl wanted to try the tomyam soup there and she ended up getting her stomach all hot. wee-o-wee
after that, went shopping in cold storage and as usual this girl bought alotof food stuffs.
what she bought shall not be disclosed here..
ohyes..there's something secretive going on.. keep your curiousity going and
maybe you will get yourself "killed" this way..
too much a curiousity with a realm of emotions+motives will bring you to a somewhere with a noone there for you ( niu&lkk, read the underlying meaning. whahahaa)

oh and niu&lkk, i finally bought my kokokrunch. :D

anyway reached home at about 3plus, went to bed at 4pm only to find myself waking up at 9plus.
so i started mapling with ahjan. lol. but her level is so much higher so she has to wait for me...
watched NannyMcphee and then it was bedtime again.

will be going out for dinner with my family to celebrate my mum's belated birthday.
woohoo it's seafood time!

i shall finish my reflection journal for our service learning project. :)
after which, i will proceed on to doing the
summary for gp,
econs case study2004 (this was supposed to be handed up for recording of marks already..but i didnt attempt this question..........i will try later..)


i love my background song. do you?

saw the physics announcement for topical test5 and my muscles got all tensed up. the image of me failing yet another test reappears.. but okay as long as enough revision is done i would probably be able to get it through.
it's up to all up to you, lsx.

i feel like crying, shouting, make a nuisance of myself, just to find my motivated self.
people say, it's your mind that is in full control.
i let my mind in, but am i doing the things my mind is telling me so?
suddenly, i realised that
i've lost the control..
or perhaps it's only the lost of my mind.

mr.rs helped me with my background song. thankyou, you ass. lol

Destiny by Jim Brickman and Jordon Hill.



ohyes i've managed to survive two days of school already.
to add on,
wednesdays and fridays are my favourite days!

met ahjan and cassong for dinner yesterday. it was decided only at the very last minute... lol..
but urgh. i still dont like pepper lunch.

met ying and mel for gelare today. 'cause it's half price for waffle day.


i cant seem to blog the way i used to.


i miss you. gweeyx. hope everything will go well for you there...

watched pirates of the caribbean with cassong and gwee ystd! i like the movie. :)

i'm 66% out of the 'sad&disappointed-with-myself-over-results' state already. 34% more to go!

i prefer keeping to myself nowadays especially when i'm in school. 'cause school is the place where sadness lingers.. nobody will be able to understand 'cause they are not in my shoes..
i tried feigning ignorance.. but deep down, nothing helps still..
haah i only have myself to blame..



it's my mum's birthday today. and i made ice cream for her... hohoho
i know she will like it whether or not it's edible.. :)

basically, i've been suffering from depression. ever since i've gotten back my results. that's why i refused to blog/journal anything. 'cause the entries out would have much been a depressive one too.
and all i can say is, big bird hasnt been very sensitive to the people around her.
angel&big bird are of the same kind. that's why they fly together. 'cause they are the only ones with wings. so unique.
hahahahaa. omg. nonsence.

hohoho. blogspot again. :) update soon!